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3 SIR
CHSCO CENTAD NS
09/11/1990

born on the day in 1922 when Einstein received his nobel prize for physics



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This blog, as its url suggests, began as a video blog. Two years ago, I came across some videos that I took of myself and decided to upload on youtube. Then I decided to compile the videos together and the best way was thru a blog. So this blog started with a single post for each video and a bit of description. Then it was dead for almost a year before it is up again. Then i decided i wanna express my feelings on it...and to share everything to everyone...and so it evolves to the state it is in today.

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Friday, November 20, 2009

CHSCO 10th Anniversary Celebration!!!

today is catholic high chinese orchestra's 10th anniversary celebration! in the evening at 6.30pm. held at CHS MPH with buffet dinner plus a bit of performance! really cant wait to go there! it surely is gonna be very fun and exciting. its been sooooo long since there's a proper gathering for the CO people, seniors, juniors, old boys, teachers, everyone!!! mingyao, caichen, freddie, pohchoon and me are going, and im sure many more from my batch are going too. and i can go see the juniors and even my seniors whom i've not met for sooooo long. cos even when i go back on normal practice days i also can't see them around. its almost 3pm now. im setting off at 6pm. really can't wait! haha. =)


Damian :: 2:53 PM



Sunday, November 15, 2009

今生最大的福气

当我烦恼时,你都会在我身边听着我诉苦。
当我沮丧时,你也会在我身边安慰我,鼓励我。
当我孤独时,你又会在我身旁陪伴我。
因为你,我也对自己有更深刻的了解。
日子一天一天地过了,我也习惯有你在身边的生活。
当我想跟身边的人说你的好时,才发现除了你,再也没有人更了解我,更会体谅我。
这段日子里,都是你在听着我说自己跟别人相处的每一个细节。
当我想告诉别人自己跟你相处的日子时,又发现除了你,也已经没有人能听我说这么多了。
我后悔以前不珍惜这个缘分,也责骂自己把这份友情当成理所当然,更恨自己不需要你时便把你抛在一边。
我现在的心情实在杂乱,也不知如何是好。
至少我终于了解到,有你这个朋友,是我今生最大的福气...


Damian :: 9:20 PM



Back to selarang...

its been a really long time since ive blogged, and an almost equally long time since i've been at selarang camp. i am booking into that place tonight, and ive almost forgotten how to go there. more than a month back i was at nee soon camp, and 3 weeks back i was in brunei.

the experience in brunei was really great, though got a lot of sai kang, and the jungle was crazy, ultimately i had a lot of satisfaction. i'll forget the few days in the jungle, crossing river in the rain, walking through the terrain that is barely for any beings to walk through at all, i did this with only one lieutenant and3sg signaller (nsf). if we got washed down by the strong current in the river, or slide down the 'valley', i wonder how are we going to go back. so there was no talk about rank or tekan all that, just 3 of us trying to get out of the jungle and...survive the trip?

thats the way NS should be, though there was a lot of physical suffering in terms of falling down every now and then and getting pricked, and with our legs shivering with the amount of load, we were happy at the end of the day cos we have been through it together, it was definitely a great experience.

i was away from 3 SIR when i was in brunei, made many many frens easily, including many regulars, be it CPT or SSG etc in the SAF camp in brunei. it was very much like a singapore camp, just that its super old and there is no such thing as 2nd storey, and 80 people stayed in our bunk? haha. the jungle was crazy, i can safely say u dunno what a jungle is like till u enter brunei. tekong's vegetation, as compared to the jungle in brunei, can be described as a 'garden' haha! well, its a pity such a good experience came to an end within 16 days.

rest and recreation (R and R) at Brunei was about mosques and sultan and their markets and visiting their shopping centres. people who do not appreciate any culture is gonna find it to be really boring. i remembered there was once when the bus stopped at the museum, 80% of the people didnt want to get down and simply remained there while we tour the musuem! i got down of cos, it was a once in a lifetime chance to enter...

well, after coming back from brunei was the one week break for me, i claimed 3 offs and took 2 leave. i learnt a lot during this week as well, and had many many new experiences. having been through all of these...i wonder how i am gonna adapt back to life in selarang camp...haizzz...7 more hours to leaving home... =(


Damian :: 2:32 PM



Monday, October 19, 2009

Reflections...

i've not blogged for a really loooooooong time, since im enjoying a few days of advanced off (due to my upcoming brunei trip which will burn many many weekends), i shall take this opportunity to spill some thoughts. and its bcos i have so many offs at one go that i actually had time to sit back at home to think through and reflect on my experiences all these while.

the past 2 weeks were spent in Nee Soon camp, cos my whole battalion moved there for AARM (Asean Armies Rifle Meet) 2009 which is held at Nee Soon live range and Mandai range and our own camp is at Selarang. Our unit is involved in the event.

Nee Soon camp still leaves me with the most memories, i learnt alot throughout my medic trainee days, and now my 3 SIR days as a medic. we stayed at the engineers training block, quite far from the medical institute block...it feels so weird to book in each time and turn the other way for the engineers block and not the medical block, and i never fail to just stare at the medical block while i book in...there are too many good memories left behind when i passed out from there.

other than going back to the medical block every so often to look for people i know, there were many new experiences, somehow i always had the most experiences here in this camp. yes, some can be life changing depending on how u look at it.

one such experience was indeed life changing, i shouldnt go into deep detail. looking back at my previous post, i realize the 'more u gain, more u lose' phrase applies yet again, something that i have always only dared to dream and think about, suddenly became true, yet instead of blissfulness or joy, it left me with emptiness...perhaps even worse than that i've felt before.

have u ever asked urself, what if ur dream is fulfilled, something that u have desired has been attained, what will u do? u probably will say, 'oh yes! i'll feel soooo blissful and satisfied i can't ask for more, its enough, i dun wan anything else already...' well, think again, can u safely assume that it would happen? chances are, no...when ur dream is fulfilled, u try hard not to let it go, only to find out that the more u cling onto it, the further away it gets...at the end of the day, what have u gained? u have an additional load to hold on to now, rather than not having seen that dream fulfilled at all like in the past...

well, the above seems extremely emo and as though im discouraging everyone to pursue their dreams etc...it depends on what kind of dreams u have, and how u deal with the situation should it become fulfilled. as for me, i failed badly...for now. what has happened has happened, i find it hard to let it go...

its a wonder how things could've changed so much in such a short time. i could vividly remember the first few days when i entered my unit, 3 SIR, infantry... 80% of the men there had tattoos, and vulgarities were used like anything. i emo like hell, thinking that i will never adapt to this kind of environment. yet in the end, i adapted. in fact, one of my closest friends, has an extremely large tattoo, and has beaten up a guy before. he said he is my worst best friend, haha. without him, i wouldnt have adapted to this environment, he's remorseful, changed for the better, always helpful. he can even sacrifice his weekends for his friends...

its yet another wonder how a scholar and an ah beng could end up being such close friends. i could still remember the first few days when i knew him, i avoided him, tried not to talk to him, always tried to go for lunch alone, and when its book out time, i disappeared quickly. i started to talk more with those group of friends ive made, the few minority that was from jc, while avoiding his group of friends. yet he stood up and spoke up for me, and through him, i was able to take a closer peek into the world of so called ah bengs. i used to criticize his group of frens, 'this one chao ah beng, that one...etc etc......' yet his friends became my friends, and i began to say hi and wave to the people that ive once avoided.

the general opinion towards ah bengs needs to change...BUT, there is a negative side as well, there are ppl who indeed seemed to be wasting their lives away, and there are people who seemed to despise people who can study, who show an apparent biasness against people like me. these are the people that i will ignore.

having said all that, its easy to test how much my fundamental interests have changed...my collection of physics books is increasing by the day. put a textbook in front of me, can be physics, chemistry, math etc, and the excitement is still there. the urge to open the book and finish it is there. my journey thorugh the world of physics is still ongoing...

well i shall stop here. anyway guys, im leaving for BRUNEI on 22nd OCT, 2am...will be back on 7th NOV around midnight. see ya guys man...


Damian :: 9:44 PM



Sunday, August 02, 2009

these few days have been rather traumatic. something is missing from my life, or i would say a lot of things are missing. i've finally understood the meaning of this phrase - the more u gain, the more u lose...

when you're in possession of a lot of things, you are forced to protect them, to ensure that they are always in your possession. losing any of them can be a miserable experience. at times, you hope that you never owned any of the missing items, then you wouldn't have felt anything about them at all... the feeling is worse when u spend time with them, trying to improve and upgrade them, only to lose them in the end. knowing how easy it is to lose the item, u start asking yourself, is it worth it to gain possession of a similar item again? would u risk it? when i talk about items, i dun mean objects only, they can be people, relationships, material or non-material.

i got to understand another thing as well. some dreams will always remain as dreams, its useless to fool yourself into believeing that a dream has come true, only to discover that the exact opposite is true. miserable as it sounds, some dreams ought to be given up completely.

if i have a calendar-like tool that could erase certain days that i've lived through, i certainly have a few days in mind. these were the days i gained possession of things that i treated to be so precious, and yet lose them totally. i wish i could turn back time to a period before i gained such things, or rather, before such things were introduced to me. i dun want memories of these things, especially things that i've treated to be most important in my life. if i hadn't gain such things, how am i supposed to even know that they are my most precious possessions and i've lost them?

it was a wrong choice to turn up on that very day...or am i wrong...?

though this post has nothing to do with the scholarship that i've just gotten, i must say that some happenings in life have made me feel more empty than before i've even gotten the scholarship, though most people believe that the opposite is true.


Damian :: 12:49 AM



Monday, July 27, 2009

A*STAR Scholarship Award Ceremony

i am having a high fever right now and thus on mc, and my mum's temp was 39.1 today so i guess i spreaded the virus to her! my plan was to write my uni application essay asap but looks like i just cant get it done. so i'll just blog. i received my a*star scholarship on friday during the ceremony, after many rehearsals which burned my saturdays (well i dun mind at all haha).

this ceremony was held at Matrix building's level 2 auditorium in Biopolis, A*Star.


DREAM SCHOLARSHIP?

looking back a year ago, i remember myself longing very much for this scholarship. i'll stare at the a*star brochures and visit the a*star website just to go to the scholar's page and admire the scholars...that was what i did during my break from studying. i'll stare at their universities and wonder how nice it'll be if i could study physics at one of them and eventually get myself a phd and pursue a research career in the area im most passionate in.

there were a lot of ups and downs, so many things have happened during my jc years. i worked hard and steadily, and i still remember how i pulled through my a levels. it was indeed stressful, i can still recall vividly how i woke up at 4am to study, and at times sleep at 2am. that night before a level chemistry and econs paper (together on the same day), i slept at 3am and woke up at 4am!!! i wonder how i managed to pull through that. haha. i received help and encouragement from teachers. and of course, there was this conduct grade incident which i will always remember.


THE INTERVIEWS

i was happy my a level grades meant that i was eligible for the scholarship. and, unlike many others, the only scholarship i applied for was a*star. i mean, which other scholarship can allow me to pursue my passion in a research intensive and international environment and to groom me into a phd holder??? there are many scholarships which allow me to take physics, but those are not what i want. so if i dun get this scholarship i would stay in singapore to study physics, and somehow try to get a phd scholarship eventually.

before being shortlisted for the interview, i had to write a 1500 word essay to describe why i wanna choose Physics and the things i've done to show my interest in science and r and d. i thought i was impossibly difficult but turns out i wrote a 2100 words essay and i had a hard time trying to eliminate some words!!!

Round ONE interview was by three scientists, one from institute of materials research and engineering, one from institute of microelectronics and one from data storage institute. they are research scientists, not professors or assoc profs. its quite natural for them to interview me since i put my choice as physics. when asked about what i know about a*star and where i wanna work in, i mentioned exactly the 3 institutes they were from and they were laughing. so coincidental haha! so i guess they knew i did my research and what kind of research a*star's institutes do has that require physics.

as i talked alot about Einstein and his relativity theory, one of them actually asked me what did Einstein win the nobel prize for, expecting me to answer relativity??? hehe. i remembered the 3 scientists shooting questions at me one by one. and at times before one could finish his question the other starts to cut in. they just want to make sure that u really and sincerely want to pursue a phd and are keen on a research career.

the interview with the chairman Mr Lim Chuan Poh was quite an experience as well. he's a very sharp guy and as u all may have already known he was the ex chief of defence force, lieutenant general (3 star), so it is normal he asked me how i ended up as a combat medic. lol. i remembered talking to him about the conduct thing and what i've done and i was just being honest haha. and after that i thought his facial expression changed and i have screwed it up big time. he was with the director of A*star graduate academy and director of Science and Engineering research council as well, all of which i've seen before (photos i mean), so i was already expecting these 3 faces on the day of the final interview itself.


THE CEREMONY

i was overjoyed when i received the email saying that i was offered the scholarship after all. and now this day has come, after so many rehearsals. and they update the website fast. right after i went home from the ceremony our faces were already on the website. both on the main page congratulating us and also in the class of 2009 scholars. its a joy visiting it and seeing my face together with all the other faces. and the award ceremony was a memorable one as well. there were 40 plus new scholars and also the phd scholars who were themselves recipients of the bachelor of science scholarship 4 years ago. those were the faces i recognise straightaway cos i've always been staring at their photos on the brochures and also in the a*star roll of honour. it feels so great to be able to go on the same stage as them to receive the award, now that im part of the family in a*star. i must thank a*star for giving this opportunity to me and will definitely cherish it and make full use of it. i can't wait to go university right now!



this was a moment i have long awaited for, receiving award from the minister for trade and industry. my favourite photo haha.





the minister giving his speech





the above photo shows the NSS-BS scholars after taking a photo with the a*star chairman, directors and the minister. we were already going off from the stage already, my dad must've missed it haha. anyway the picture below shows the photo taken by the professional photographer, and i believe it must have been edited. its on the a*star website but the size is pathetic cos they have to save the server space.





the photos above and below shows the performance our group has put up during the ceremony. its a chemistry lesson skit and midway through the lesson the teacher used a very unique way to teach everyone about the periodic table. if u have heard the elements song u'll know whats going on. its a spoof of the video on youtube and basically after every element is called in the song we pluck out something behind the boards that make up the periodic table to reveal the element. haha.

ok the video below shows the original elements song







periodic table fully revealed... i am behind the nitrogen, oxygen, phosphorous and sulphur board. the square board at the back (right)



the teacher doing the talking





the dance performance


THE FINALE SONG - HEAL THE WORLD



we chose 'heal the world' to sing for our finale song and i think its really touching and suitable. throughout all the rehearsals and preparations and meetings we had before the actual ceremony, we have bonded in some way or another, even for an introverted person like me. hence, coming together to sing a song is a perfect conclusion to this ceremony. after all we're future colleagues! at least i've started to appreciate all the rehearsals and stuff as it makes this ceremony a more memorable, though i used to hope that we can just come up and receive the award and go off. in the first pic above we were snapping fingers and waving light sticks.



putting hands on shoulders...



waving sticks again, this time higher.






AFTER THE CEREMONY



after the ceremony i met with my parents outside the auditorium and i actually met Mr Chan (HCI Vice Principal). i was so happy la and he could recognize me! yay. haha. he's the vp who studied in catholic high in the past. i'm happy he was invited to this event and i chatted with him in his office a few times. a few other ex Hwa Chongians were chatting with him and i actually met one guy whom i found out to be the author of an article sharing his experience with A*Star interviews and his advice on getting the scholarship! before each interview i MUST read his article to refresh myself on his tips and to try to expect what would happen during the interview. now i'm seeing this guy in person during the award ceremony as a scholar, its a really wonderful feeling. the article written by him is here http://tjchighed.pbworks.com/Scholarships+-+A*STAR





haha the above photo shows me standing beside the congratulatory ad A*Star has put up to congratulate the scholars. the photos of us inside are taken by professional photographers and they had such a hard time getting me to smile lol.









two guys from rj that i made friends with







when we were moving off already, i saw the chairman downstairs so we quickly took a photo with him and we had a quick chat.



this scholarship is a beginning of a new adventure in life, to pursue my passion in a leading overseas university with amazing facilities and lecturers. after which i will come back for a year of ressearch attachment before embarking on phd studies in yet another university. by then i'll be rich with experiences and even after studying there's a wonderful career to look forward to. part of the bond can be serve in the universities (NUS and NTU) as a lecturer and academic positions can be held there as well. the future is definitely exciting!!!



but first, i have to ord...haha.


Damian :: 6:38 PM



Sunday, July 19, 2009

HCI Awards Ceremony 2009

ok let this post be a morale booster. it reminds me that i have a beautiful and successful civilian life out there. it reminds me that im not given a rank in the civilian world and im appreciated as a person with a passion and individual intersts and goals.









i was awarded the outstanding student award and my 7 dist award and the 7 dist plaque was given to me first (not on stage) and so i only proceeded to the stage once (for time saving purposes i guess) to receive the outstanding student award which is some sort of a medal. the cert for the outstanding student award was given to me before the ceremony as well. haha i felt that the plaque should be the one presented on stage, it is bigger and nicer when looked from far (eg in a photograph took below the stage). but the medal is really very very nice when looked closely. its so shiny and golden and heavy.



the above is the front of the medal. this is the original colour of the medal. the first few pictures at the start of the post show that it's somewhat silver but its actually fully gold.



this pic shows how shiny the medal is. u can actually see my camera's reflection in it! even the back of the medal is nicely decorated.
imagine if only the carving on the medal is not that of a hci building, but of alfred nobel!!! that would be sooooo nice!!!



please dun get it wrong the above medal is not mine!!!

its only until i really sit down in the auditorium and lt3 with my classmates and see my teachers in front that i realize how much i actually miss this feeling - the feeling of being in school, the feeling of being in hci. i used to miss the feeling of being at secondary school cos we are generally given more attention and focus by the teachers, and in jc u have to be more independent. but after going to the army, i finally know whats 100% independence, to the extent that u must know how to defend yourself when a situation goes wrong for u. being able to sit in a lecture theatre with ur teachers in front of u doing all the talking is an ultimate luxury, though some students think of it as a torture. my advice to these people is to choose subjects that they are really passionate about to take. and you'll feel as if u are watching a performance during a lecture cos u love the subject so so much and someone is talking about it in front.

we went to report in lt3 for some briefing before proceeding on to the auditorium. and the lt and audi atmospshere all felt too familiar. we talked about army and stuff. though its not that long since we last met (cos we just had an outing last weekend), the feeling here is different cos its back at the very place where we studied. kk i shall share the pics taken.



the stage, the emcees, the awards...



spot me above!



principal's adresss...



principal showing off about HCI scholars dominating A*Star Scholars Honours list...lol.





me going up the stage to collect my medal.





my faourite pic showing the whole atmosphere with me and my medal.



jia qiang and me. on our way home we met at the parade square so we took a picture.



part of my family and me!









haha i look like a salesman who just successfully sold a car to someone. LOL.

as i've said, this award ceremony will serve as a morale booster and i am constantly being reminded of 'hey, this is my life!' when im seated down at the auditorium with my fellow schoolmates. i am an individual with my own achievements and awards. i hope my confidence in myself will be back to the fullest again. anyway, hc is a place with a strong alumni association so we wun lose contact with it.


Damian :: 1:01 AM



Tuesday, July 14, 2009

lost...

i realize i'll be away from home for 10 years, 2 due to ns (though there're weekends but i always feel as if i book in as soon as i book out, weekends sure pass fast). the next 8 years will be due to studying overseas, well that was my choice...well anyway...i am blogging because i'm somewhat depressed.

well i have an off today and when i was told suddenly that i've to book in by 5pm today i was totally lost, cos i thought i could at least sleep another night at home today. i mean i was writing my uni app essay halfway and suddenly an sms just came saying i have to be back, meaning i have to leave house by 3pm!

next is the feeling of lost and a bit of sadness when i was informed of this fact. i do recall feeling abit sian during the book in days in bmt and bmc. but it was never that sian. i associate such feelings with a few things that have happened in this camp, which i dun wish to elaborate (im not allowed to anyway). well...counting down to book in time is probably the most depressing moment for nsfs...

i have beautiful dreams, often i dream of being able to start my university life at the age of 19, right next month. often, i stare at the new university physics text that ive bought last year, right beside me, on my table, when i'm at home. yet i know i can't concentrate fully on studying it, due to the amount of things i've to settle during weekends, and because of the fact that i stay in camp, which is an ultimate inconducive environment for studying. i look at my untouched books, my unfinished essay and countles many other things. and wish that i can just take a month off to settle everything.

the stressful and miserable moments i've felt recently can also be linked to the fact that at the same time while serving the nation, i am fighting for every little bit of free time i can possibly fight for, to study, to read, to ensure i dun lose touch with physics, yet i dun wan to lose touch with my friends out in the civilian world either. though i know the root behind all these feelings, im still stressed. i've high expectations of myself. i dun wan to waste any time, esp when it has become so precious now that im in the army.physics is a subject that requires much thought and concentration. lose a bit of concentration and u would not be able to master any concept.

finally is the feeling of leaving my house. its very very bad. to unlock the door and step out of it, knowing that u wun be back for at least a few days, is very sad. resting at home, or walking in the streets in town or walking in a shopping centre has become one of the greatest luxuries i can ever enjoy.


Damian :: 1:44 PM



Sunday, June 07, 2009

Medic POP...

i'm going to miss SMTI - BMC (basic medic course) like hell... and i still can recall how everyone complained that we have to stay here for 11 weeks when we were here for out first week. and now, nobody wants to leave at all. and i already play the medic song for like 100 times on my com.

anyway, i'll just upload a few photos for now. videos and more photos will come later. im posted to Selarang Camp in TAMPINES!!! means that for the next 1 year 8 months im gonna travel all the way there arghhhh. Infantry some more, 3 SIR is my new unit. gone are those days in nee soon camp, 6 mins from my house, and somewhere i really really look forward to booking in to each sunday.


i'll never forget u guys...


jasper, yongsheng, hengky, nabil, kin mun, sgt royston, sgt abu zar, zi qiao, me, victor


me and superstar buddy Adriano


me and my best friend in BMC tian kian! arghhh why did i look away from the camera!!!


yongsheng trying to get dinie in out photo. lol.


thats much better =)


screwed photo, me, jeremy, ming lun, adriano


my platoon in the parade


us performing medics warcry!


random...lol...

I LOVE BMC!!!


Damian :: 4:52 PM



Saturday, May 30, 2009

went back to hci and chs yesterday. talked to a few teachers and the cleaner auntie in chs as well. somehow i think im kinda detached from the academic world or school life. watching the students attend their lessons is really a weird thing. school feels really unfamiliar and its hard to believe that i myself was attending the lessons just a year ago. and the feeling when i stepped into chs is different as well. i just got to get used to being in a school shld i enter it again.

what i could identify with was surprisingly the POP of the NCC ppl in chs. i used to not understand uniform groups at all, and i wonder why ppl join uniform groups. many times, i dun even bother to take a look at them.



the picture above shows the NCC POP in CHS yesterday. i could understand all the commands, and it was the most familiar thing that i saw in CHS yesterday. weird eh...
anyway i met up with some juniors, and saw some of them as well. other than that i got nothing much to blog about already.

i have a lot of things undone and im quite stressed now. and i really dun wanna spend my two years in NS doing just NS...first is reading up, next i wan to do some work that i could keep for future reference, or that i can let others read. kk nvm i just got alot to do. weekends aren't enough. once i enter a unit and when my NS life is really stabilized im going to bring stuff in to do.


Damian :: 6:36 PM



Friday, May 29, 2009

Memories...5 More Days to POP

i can remember with great fondness my time spent in both BMT and BMC (basic medic course). if u have asked me if i wanted to go to NS before jan 28 (my enlistment date), i probably would have said no. but if u pose the same question to me now, i would say, without hesitation, a firm yes. at least, i know i want to go through both BMT and BMC, whether or not i would enjoy NS after passing out of BMC is another issue.

i made a lot of close friends during this period of my life. and i remembered how much i miss my BMT bunkmates when i entered BMC, yet within a few weeks, im already as close to them as i am to my BMT bunkmates. i've said before, that somehow the process of making friends is greatly accelerated in NS, as compared to those in school.

possible reasons for this include the fact that we are staying together in the same cosy bunk everyday. also, the number of bunkmates we have, as compared to that of a class, is much smaller. especially for an introverted person like me, speaking up in front of a large amount of people is difficult. so in BMT and BMC, i'm able to make friends with my small number of bunkmates first and then move on to those in my platoon. of course, we go through every single thing together. we eat the same food, wear the same attire, sleep at almost the same time.

now, im 5 days away from POP. and im hoping the day wouldnt come. i remembered that when i first entered BMC, i thought it was a 9 weeks course and it changed to 11 weeks. so everyone was like wth 11 weeks? how to survive. we all wanted to leave that place asap. yet now we know we are dreading POP. and for me, im treasuring every moment in camp now. i won't feel sad if we dun get to bookout early, or have nights out every week.

think about it this way, in future, even if u want to book in to camp and stay with all your bunkmates again, you will not even get a chance. whereas u will get to spend all ur time in the civilian world after u ORD. so, is the time spent in camp with all ur frens more precious, or the time u get to spend in the civilian world?

its true that we may suffer at times. esp when we are punished in SBO under the hot sun, really feel like dying. there may be unreasonable commanders, this is the same everywhere. but what is important is the things we gain after going through all these...kk, after POP i will be able to upload some pictures of the parade, that is the only time we can bring a camera in.


HCI, CHS

today is the only non public holiday weekday that i will get to be out of camp. for vesak day off in lieu, i know thats quite long ago, but my camp is quite weird haha. so im going back to HCI to collect the A Level cert. and of course im going back to Catholic High as well. so there'll be a lot of memory recalling today haha.

its been a looooooooong time since i've stepped in Catholic High especially, and im going back on a weekday where all the sch activities are going on. and today is the last day of term 2 for all the juniors. everyone must be in a good mood. cant wait to talk to my teachers, both in HCI and CHS. im really glad. =) today is going to be a wonderful day! xD


Damian :: 8:30 AM



Friday, May 08, 2009

quite bored now...haha. somehow im not that excited about booking out like in the past, maybe i've really gotten used to army life, or my life in SMTI in particular. we used to go wild during nights out but now more than half the platoon do not book out during nights out. nights out means we are allowed to book out of camp from abt 6pm till 10.30pm. yesterday i went to yishun library during lights out, and i realized that i would have preferred to be in the camp with all the bunkmates, slacking or chatting other than rushing here and there and geting sweaty. maybe we all feel that we've been 'trapped' in a camp so much that if we dun go for nights out then its a waste, thats why even though there are ppl who say aiya nights out go where. most still would go so they wun waste the nights out.

but we tend to overlook the fact that after our POP (passing out parade) from SMTI (SAF Medical Training Institute), we will never get the chance to even visit this camp anymore.

life, like in bmt, is getting better by the day. ive gone through 7 weeks as a medic trainee and we've graduated from the civilian medic course, starting combat phase next week for another 4 weeks before POP. in fact POP is not a day i am eagerly looking forward to, cos i would have preferred to stay in this camp for even a few months after POP. the people here, and my bunkmates are generally nice, with the exception of a few ppl who are exceptionally nice, haha.

in fact, staying with a bunch of ppl all the time, esp now that they've become my good frens, really stop me from thinking abt personal problems and stuff. esp when sleeping at night with so many beds around u, somehow u wun emo that much and worry abt ur own stuff. so in a way it really helps to relieve a certain level of stress that i would have felt when alone, say, at home.

i have tonnes of stuff to blog abt, these few weeks far too many unique experiences already. but i think i will stop now. lots of stuff to settle after each bookout.


Damian :: 10:50 PM



Thursday, April 09, 2009

INTRAVENOUS INFUSION (IV) TECHNIQUE

today we had an early bookout from camp. 3.30pm lol. and tmr is gd friday so its a long weekend and everyone was excited. well...we only did IV today and my vein was ruptured haha, on both arms. this happened to my buddy as well when i poked him the first time. =( so he got the vein successfully only at the third time. cant blame him also, my vein so difficult to find.

im almost an IV expert already haha. but its also bcos my buddy's vein is super easy to find, just poke and i reach it already, then got backflow of blood and all that. lucky i still can type with swollen arm haha. hmm, i remembered the first IV that i did, i was soooo scared though i never thought i was afraid of needles. i am NOT afraid of being poked, but just afraid of poking ppl. i was damn relaxed till when i finally held a needle in my hand, about to poke my buddy...

i sweat and sweat profusely. till my gloves were all wet, then i shivered and brought the needle forward. my buddy was just the other way round compared to me, he's scared of being poked, not afraid of poking ppl. so he shouted when my needle went in, and my mind went blank, i just poked right in and shivered till the needle came out. i apologised many many times, then poked again. more shouting, and i was more anxious. end result, the needle went right through the vein and it ruptured and there was a swell.

the swelling was crazy, today my arm also swell liddat. once the needle go in the swell will build up, u can really see it building up and u'll be scared trust me. so my first iv was really really screwed up, forgot a lot of things also, mind really went blank.

subsequent IVs (today was the third one) were perfectly ok. i dun shiver anymore, im so relaxed and i would say im used to poking ppl already.


CAMP AND BUNKMATES

army is really a brand new experience. i remembered missing tekong when i went in to nee soon camp, wondering how i can adapt to the new life here, looking at strangers all around me. and yet before adapting to tekong life, i really felt very lost cos i never went to army before (well obviously), and i never stayed in camp before. but in the end, i made such wonderful frens in tekong that we already had three outings since we graduated.

and same for nee soon camp. its been only 3 weeks, and i've adapted fully. in fact when i eat dinner at home now, i kind of long for queuing up for dinner in the cookhouse, with all my frens, and eating tgt. and also slacking in bunk after RO (routine order). its obvious i would miss nee soon camp saf medical training institute when i graduate from it. i was only in tekong for 5 and a half weeks. im going to be in nee soon camp for another 8 weeks, and i must treasure it.

somehow making frens is an easy process in the army cos we stay together. having the same experience in both army camps, i can conclude accurately that we make frens quickly here. well...compared to making frens in sch...much much more quickly. and it teaches u to be more independent. well at least now i feel that its better to have gone thru all these than to slack home. imagine going thru my whole life without experiencing staying in camp, marching as a platoon, staying with fellow trainees...learning to be independent...there's a lot to be missed.

maybe its life as a recruit, and now as a trainee, that i find fulfilling. cos we are learning things, we train tgt, and stay tgt with all our frens. when i graduated as a medic, i would have more freedom, higher rank, no longer be controlled and restricted as trainees, can eat lunch on my own, not as a platoon, dun have to fall in and count strength all the time. BUT, life may be boring, i may not make many new frens anymore, i may not stay with fellow trainees in bunk, and may not learn stuff everyday anymore., life may become a boring routine. in that case, i will wish i can ORD immediately and leave NS. but i have no choice, i am in a medical training institute now, and its only right that i serve after graduating from this school, utilising my skills.

well, life after graduation is still uncertain. bcos if i have to spend my next one and a half years doing nothing but on standby throughout other ppl's training, i would definitely find it boring. theres no more learning and interaction...i hope it wun be this way...


Damian :: 5:50 PM



Friday, April 03, 2009

SAF Medical Training Institute

k im posted to SMTI for training to be combat medic, since last week monday i've been there for an 11 weeks course. time is tight now so i only have time to blog a bit, got to book back in at 10pm for guard duty (not punishment). first, i would say that i've adapted well to the environment. same thing, first day i felt very sad and i wonder how i'm going to adapt and know everyone, but as time passes so quickly, im now kinda enjoying life there already.

the PT is quite xiong, cos combat medic is diff from service medic, its a Pes A and B vocation though im in Pes C, only got 4 pes c in my platoon of 64 ppl. combat medic has to carry rifle and everything plus stretcher and medical oderly pouch (MOP) and chiong. so PT is 4.5km roughly, and 800m more for slower runners, and yet another 800m more for even slower runners, esp those who walked in the back. then its 60 pushups and 60 crunches, or 110 counts of 4 squatt bender!!! lol. and training is progressive, sergeants says this is only the starting...

life's not bad really. have quite a number of things to talk abt, and in case u dunno, we have to give IV (intravenous infusion technique aka poke the vein and put drip) to our buddies 10 times to pass the course. 10 successful times. means its roughly u have to be poked 30 times liddat if on average u miss 2 times each.

i got two successful ones already, and have given 2 successful ones also. haha. kk i shall go now. will blog abt it next week ba, got long weekend cos of gd friday. times is really really tight today...


Damian :: 6:47 PM



Friday, March 20, 2009

Old Catholic High Building!!! (queen street)

went to plaza sing and cathay today, k but thats not the main point. i was on my way from cathay to national library, with my junior, and he was telling me that the old cat high building is very near to us, and part of it has been turned into a museum. i was like, 'sure or not???' and i really feel bad abt now knowing the school's history properly man. but heres something to learn...

stepping into this building which i've seen in pictures describing cat high's history is really an exciting experience.



this (above pic) was the first view of the building that i've seen while walking, below is a closer look of it and u see the words "sino-english catholic school" on it, it was the original name of catholic high. the building is old and has been sealed up for many many years, the gate to this building is locked.







very old building, u can imagine every student rushing throught this very building for lessons, in the 1950s...in the two pictures below u see this very building right at that time (picture taken from a different angle if u didn't realise), i got this from the Catholic High Alumni website. the building is still standing right here, not demolished or anything, and it has not been turned into anything else. its still in the same state. its really good to see it today, and to compare it to old pictures.



really makes me wonder how life would be like back then at this very building. i long to go back in time and study there for a few months haha.





the classroom doors...



pic taken from behind the building. the windows are weird lol.



me standing in front of the church (former catholic high building too)

this building seems very familiar and the moment i see it i know that yes i am indeed standing right in front of the old queen street building, if u read the history of catholic high there's always this picture showing students assembled in front of this church building. i never knew i could really get to see the same building haha. i believe that the place where i was standing was the former parade square of the school. its like our new clock tower. now that its been turned into a church u can see ppl inside offering prayers.



these pictures show the sign at the old buiding. notice how our new building (for chs readers) resembles the old building, the pilars and stuff. and the 'sino-english catholic school' sign was put up in the new compound a year ago, exactly like this one. now the reason for putting that sign becomes clear eh.




door to a classroom



the above is a picture taken from beside the church. look at the new orange building that is in front of the church, i took it that way to show its position relative to the church. its the former catholic high primary, and has recently been turned into part of the Singapore Arts Museum.

for a closer look at the museum u can take a look at the picture below.



look carefully at the pictures above and below. look at the parts circled by me. if u notice the two pillars that i circled had been the gate to enter the school, they are not demolished. the circled pillars in both pictures are the same pillars that has stood there for more than 50 years...


Catholic High School, circa 1956 (Photocredit: National Archives of Singapore)
notice the policemen in their old uniform, and also the very very old type of street light.


Catholic High School, No.8 Queen Street. circa 1954 (Photocredit: National Archives of Singapore) again i circled the pillar.


Courtyard, Catholic High School, circa 1956 (Photocredit: National Archives of Singapore)

the article below talks about the opening of the art museum.

8Q sam is Singapore Art Museum’s new wing for contemporary art. Both the main museum building and the new 8Q building were originally built to serve as schools. 8Q sam was the former Catholic High Primary School. Read more at 8Q sam.
It’s approximately “88 steps” from the Singapore Art Museum (SAM), but the new wing, 8Q, is expected to go the distance for contemporary art. Revamped to the tune of $6 million, the former Catholic High School building along Queen Street will open tomorrow night with the group show 8Q-Rate: School. The exhibit will feature new works by eight artists working with eight curators on the theme of “school”. The works will include a range from urban pop art to installation to video to sound from artists such as Donna Ong, Tan Kai Syng, Jason Wee, Chong Li-Chuan and the phunkstudio design collective.






compare the picture above and below... the pic below is a photo album cover for catholic high in the 1950s...



Damian :: 12:14 AM